Trial Run

Today, some of the freshman came in to get their schedules and particiapte in a mock run of their day.

I had a few show up, some sweet, frightened kids. A couple hyper ones. Overall, it made me realize just how unprepared I am mentally right now.

I've been in the mindset the last two years that I don't belong. I don't have a "home" where I can be comfortable to be myself. It makes me really worried. I NEED to treat this school as if it is my home. I need to build those relationships and be myself. Not my anxious self, my friendly, confident self.

Also, I'm going through stuff and planning my units and there is SO MUCH I want to do. Fun, interactive activities. But if I can't handle facilitating these activities, we won't be able to do them.

I think it's good that I'm concerned about this now. I just need to do something about it. All of the other teachers on the hall were jumping on the opportunity to lay the law down a little. I attempted it, but they were just so nervous!

One of my main goals this year is to maintain a classroom that is:
1. Under Control (by me, obviously)
2. Organized
3. Positive

This is the ideal classroom... I'd settle for 1 and a smidge of 2 and 3.

It is my third year teaching (though I've only taught 1 1/2 years, it feels like my third or fourth). I should be able to do this. I know what problems to anticipate, I just have to have the COURAGE and BACKBONE to nip them in the butt.

10 Days until Pre-Planning...